Count the blessings :)

Salam
Tadaaa.. first night at home, after I am discharged from the hospital. Cannot seem to close my eyes.. had been sleeping since I got back home anyway...
I came back from hospital today,6th day in hospital..no complaints on the nurses. They had been very nice to me.. considering how grumpy I can get at night
and how bloody my pillowcase can be when I am awake in the morning. I appreciate them.

My doctor.. he is a strict guy I must say..but very loving at heart. :) He has his own way of expressing is loving side, but I must say that he is very loving at heart :)

From the day I came back home, I shall be on house arrest for 2 weeks. No heavy work, just rest at home. At first I wonder why is that so.. However, after my first car ride back home.. gosh. i felt go nauseous.. dizzy and the first thing I did when I got back is to sleep on my bed! I sooo miss my bed. I slept like a log for good few hours!!

Well that kinda explain why I am not sleepy at 145am in the morning.. thus, writing this piece. Honestly, this time I said to myself that I am just gonna write down what comes across my mind. One big thing that had been on my mind, are the nice souls that made their time to visit me in the hospital and all the nice well wishes that I got through sms,FB,bbm and twitter.

I believe no one can ever say that 24hours a day is enough..and it is always to have extra time,find time or hope for a spare time. phrases like "kalau ada masa" is always invalid to me, coz honestly speaking, you can never have that piece of time. However, I believe in making time. You can only make time.. push and squeeze your tight schedule to do what you wish to... In my case, I am very touched, thankful and extremely happy for those who actually made time to come over and visited me in the hospital.May God bless all of you with abundance of love,joy and happiness.

I may come from a small family,but I am blessed with a big number of uncles, aunts and cousins. Adding to the list, sweet friends :)

I have an uncle of mine that took more than 2 hours to reach Pantai Medical Centre during my first night there, due to traffic and him unfamiliar with the way to get there... he was around.He made sure he came that night, coz he might not be able to come on the other days.That was so sweet :) My bestie, came with her family! :)

When I woke up from my GA, gosh, it was no joke, my nose was hurting.. and... bleeding. I heard that the doctor and nurses were talking, to let me stay in the OT area for awhile coz my bleeding was bad.. they were vaccuming my cheek and to suck the blood off. Nothing much I could do at that time other than being thankful to God that I am awake and hope that I can recover faster. It was very painful...

I did not know how bad it was until I was wheeled out.. I remembered that shocked faces from my family members. There was my family, my aunts and my uncles..which include my uncle and aunt that just got back from abroad. I have no idea how I looked like at all..all I knew at that time, it was painful, painful n painful.. discomforting at the very best. As I was dealing with the pain and the shocking faces, I heard familiar voice at the door..

First batch of friends came...I was really flattered..really.It was the batch of friends that I know how busy they are..they might not know how much it meant to me to see them around..among the firsts to see me fresh from the OT and badly in pain.I knew something was really wrong with me at that time, when they were speechless and shared the same blank face like the others. Finally,my dear friend shed some light to me.. when the golden hint was uttered.. "mi..teruk jugak ni". Bingo! that was the answer ! i was in a bad shape.. without me knowing. I only knew that much later of the day, when I went to the toilet and saw myself in the mirror for the first time. Goshhh.. i look horrible! It was baaaaaad. Cant do much about it though...all the packs and unwanted cat-like whiskers on my cheeks were taken out the following day. How was it? crazy painful. in spite of getting the drowsy injection before the doc pull out those accessories~ huhu.

back to the first day fresh from the OT,I was drowsy.. and unable to speak well..bleeding and was in pain...still in my not so fashionable OT outfit. Family members came to give their support.. n yeah,and.... someone came, that made me wanted to jump with joy! hahahaha. To be completely honest, I didnt see it coming. and to be really really really honest, yes, I did have that some little part of wish that person to come.Simple reason? There are certain people that I know that somehow can twitch my smiliing muscles to smile...people that u can smile just by looking at them. It doesnt occur to everyone.. and even that person does not know that. ;) it's good to have that much needed smiley feel good feeling in that intense pain... it was a good pain killer. if only you know that! :P haha. thanks thanks thanks n thanks for making time for me, even it was just for awhile. Given that ultra busy schedule, one thing I learnt, where there's a will..there's a way.

family and friends came..i even got notty cousins taking pics of me with the packs stuffed in my nose..lots of love and supports...

balloons..flowers..cookies hamper..chocolates.. baskin robbin ice cream..fruits..food...and lots n lots n lots of laughs

oh ya, got my first touch of ipad on my hospital bed! haha. very random, but yeah it is true.

i even have my dearie friend that flew all the way from KK.. thank u extremely much.

cool thing was, got a rockstar came by after a concert! haha. good thing about staying in a private hospital, you can accept visitors at midnight :D

a few came twice during my stay there. a friend of mine was awesome, cracking jokes that made me laugh till i think my nose could actually popped out! haha. from random topics to politics, yeah, politics..i dont think i can run away from that topic :P ...but it was just a lot of fun ! tq tq tq. was even singing on the bed! haha. funny but true.. some short sing-a-long random moments :P

not forgetting, phone calls from abroad,phone calls from different places in Malaysia to support... and messages from all around the world. tq tq tq tq tq

In short, it was physically a painful experience to undergo such operation.. waking up with blood stains on your pillowcase.. and countless number of times to wipe the dripping blood from the nose.Every cloud has a silver lining...in times like this, you will live and thankful to know and see people that really care for you.. people that made time for you.. in other words, people that really love and cafe for you one way or another. I am thankful to God that I have nice people around me. Nice uncles and aunties.. nice cousins.. and awesome friends. Above all, loving and supportive family members that took care of me. Mum and sis took turns to sleep with me and take care of me in the hospital and dad had been very supportive as well. I even got a very nice roomate at the hospital..I wish her to get well soon as well.

As my brother told me, count the blessings and appreciate the people that was there for you...

Thank you very very very much..though I did not mention any names here..you know who are. Thank you soo much for all the supports... Thanks for being there for me..
May God bless all of you :)

On another note, as the saying goes "Sakit itu penghapus dosa".. I know God still loves me.. giving me chance to improve myself. It was a physically painful experience...that brought more than just a little lesson to learn and mature :)

Take of your health folks, and take care of your family and people that care for you :)

xoxo
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